For us, the holidays are always bittersweet. We have so much to be thankful for, and yet there is a sadness that predominates these days. Our family will never be what it was before 2007. We will never have that Thanksgiving dining table with all of us gathered 'round, because our daughter is no longer a part of this world.
I know she is with us in spirit, but it is not the same. I miss her beautiful smile and her saying, "Oh Mom, the turkey smells delicious!" Or, "Mom I want to help. Let me make the deviled eggs." (She loved deviled eggs!) Most of all, I miss holding her, having her near me and telling her how much I love her.
We do have much happiness during the holidays, but it is always tempered with the deep wound of loss that never heals. So every year, we set out an extra place setting for Brianna and remember all that we had when she was alive, and all that we still have now. And somehow, we are still thankful.
I wish you and your families a most heartfelt Thanksgiving.