The holidays will forever be hard for me. I want to celebrate and enjoy the season. But a part of my heart is gone, and I will not be able to truly enjoy it as I once did. I've purposely busied myself with art and try to stay upbeat on my blog and with all of you. But I also need to be honest, and the truth is I am having a difficult time right now.
It has only been a year and a half since Brianna passed away. I still wake up every morning thinking of her and the struggle she endured to survive. So young and so unfair. The question of why still lingers. And I think of the other mothers in the world who have lost children of all ages and who are also struggling with their loss during the holidays.
I'm sorry this isn't a very cheery subject. But I needed to share how heavy my heart is now and how much I am missing our teenage daughter. I always feel it, but it is especially painful at this time of year.
As we all slip into the hurried pace of the holidays, remember the things that are important and those who do not have all of their family members with them.
Please join me on Sunday, December 14, along with other bereaved families, for The Compassionate Friends Worldwide Candle Lighting.
Visit The Compassionate Friends website to find a formal service near you, or light a candle in your home at 7 PM knowing you will be joined by hundreds of thousands of people who are thinking about the children around the world who are gone, but continue to live on in the hearts that they touched.
A Remembrance Book will also be available on The Compassionate Friends' website on that day to post a message or tribute.
Sleep well my sweet cakes, my beautiful Brianna.
"Dear departed love, continue to be with me, as I will with you."
~ Martha Whitmore Hickman
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